True healing requires a slower pace. I'm one of those rare people who have scoliosis that began at birth. I didn't know why my ribs were different on the left side vs right side of my rib cage. My family doctor just said "you were born that way" as if that's all we needed to know.
When I was 21, I had a full body X-ray for a job that required a government security clearance and that's the first time I found out I had scoliosis. This was in 1980.
Fast forward to now and I know so much more about scoliosis than most people will ever want to know. I've injured myself doing too much or too fast of the wrong thing for my structure and one time a bike accident. I've also healed myself with help from alternative therapies and yoga numerous times.
1. Healing takes place slowly
2. True healing requires addressing all areas of life
3. Consistent and slow progress is sustainable
4. Quick fixes do not work, nor do they stick (unsustainable)
5. Nature heals
6. Healing requires emotional reflection/work
7. Healing requires a deeper connection with people
8. Connection with your Self, Soul, spirituality and faith is also a requirement for healing.
9. Stay open to coincidences when seeking healing. (The right next step will show up when you're looking/ready)
10. Healing yourself is a lifetime endeavor
This self healing work is essential for everyone around you. If you want to change anything outside of yourself, your Self is the place to focus that change and healing.
Practice consistently and over a long period of time is yoga. An interpretation of the 14th Sutra in Patanjali's yoga sutras (1:14) says " Success can definitely be achieved via sound and continuous practice over an extended period of time, carried out in a serious and thoughtful manner. ||14||"
Healing works the same way. Go slow, do something good for yourself every single day.
Last past year I have been forced to step back and cut back - and there has been a profound change within my self.
There is nothing like the death of a child and I have learned many things since March when I learned that my world was forever changed by my son Jacob's death by suicide. No one can imagine - even me - what people go through when they lose a child this way.
This is still unimaginable - even to me who has experienced it. There are things I have realized since then, that I didn't before (as strongly) and I know that this learning curve will be ongoing for many years.
So far I have realized/learned that I can tolerate only what is true and authentic for me. Literally. I have post traumatic stress and am being treated for it - and PTSD - in my opinion for myself only - is manageable, and empowering.
It is empowering that my body reacts instantly to what is not authentically good for me. I have learned that these things are essential for a good life:
With this in mind... I am announcing here that I am NOT opening up a yoga studio this coming year as a sole owner.
A successful yoga business is rare - the successful ones typically have more than one owner.
A yoga community such as ours will thrive in spite of or - perhaps because of it.
Yoga Prairie is no longer a physical studio - now it is a virtual studio - where I will be promoting individual yoga teacher's businesses on my website, including my own. When you find a teacher you like, you can attend their class, pay them directly, and let me know how it's going from time to time - or don't feel like you have to. A yoga community is just that - a community where we share our journey in life together - and yoga - union of mind-body-spirit - is a very special and unique journey - a much deeper journey if you want it to be.
I going to continue offering yoga classes at Dance Esteem, and I am working on a home studio where I will teach private and small group yoga sessions. This studio should be ready to use by January! (I'll have an open house for you & invite you when it's ready!)
Many of you are my friends and are reading this wondering how I am, how will I be and how is the rest of our family. Thank you for your friendship and concern. We are all grieving in our own unique way, it is a private journey, and we also will talk about it - please don't feel awkward about it if you feel you want to say something - or if you don't want to that is fine too - just be authentic and truthful with us. My family - we are all learning how to live with, through and in the knowledge and feelings and experiences that Jacob left us with. We are all learning how to connect with him at a different level as well - since he is no longer in the body and we feel such powerful love and pain from this loss - we all realize how the physical body is just a small part of who we really are. Thank you & my love to you....