Last past year I have been forced to step back and cut back - and there has been a profound change within my self.
There is nothing like the death of a child and I have learned many things since March when I learned that my world was forever changed by my son Jacob's death by suicide. No one can imagine - even me - what people go through when they lose a child this way. This is still unimaginable - even to me who has experienced it. There are things I have realized since then, that I didn't before (as strongly) and I know that this learning curve will be ongoing for many years. So far I have realized/learned that I can tolerate only what is true and authentic for me. Literally. I have post traumatic stress and am being treated for it - and PTSD - in my opinion for myself only - is manageable, and empowering. It is empowering that my body reacts instantly to what is not authentically good for me. I have learned that these things are essential for a good life:
A successful yoga business is rare - the successful ones typically have more than one owner. A yoga community such as ours will thrive in spite of or - perhaps because of it. Yoga Prairie is no longer a physical studio - now it is a virtual studio - A yoga community is just that - a community where we share our journey in life together - and yoga - union of mind-body-spirit - is a very special and unique journey - a much deeper journey if you want it to be. Many of you are my friends and are reading this wondering how I am, how will I be and how is the rest of our family. Thank you for your friendship and concern. We are all grieving in our own unique way, it is a private journey, and we also will talk about it - please don't feel awkward about it if you feel you want to say something - or if you don't want to that is fine too - just be authentic and truthful with us. My family - we are all learning how to live with, through and in the knowledge and feelings and experiences that Jacob left us with. We are all learning how to connect with him at a different level as well - since he is no longer in the body and we feel such powerful love and pain from this loss - we all realize how the physical body is just a small part of who we really are. Thank you & my love to you.... Karen Kinnard
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Karen Kinnard
8/31/2015 10:40:06 pm
Good morning! You know you have a strong healthy inner self. You can accomplish anything you choose. I want to be your partner in accomplishing your goals. Email me and let's connect about what that is for you. [email protected]
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